I wish I could find back to that feeling I had when I was the most active with writing and when the inspiration was flowing.
I know that the one blocking it is no one other than myself, but it's hard for me to pick up where I left, after being inactive for so long.
I suppose what I need to do is to begin from scratch again, but somehow I'm too scared to start with nothing.
So for a while now, I've been going back to my old creations, and I've found a lot of material that I want to use and develop into something more.
But no matter how hard I try, it seems like I cannot write as smoothly as before, it simply doesn't feel the same.
With time I've changed so much, as well as my style of writing.
And I'm not so sure that it changed in a positively manner, I suspect that my language has gotten worse actually.
But this only gives me more reason to fight and start from the beginning once again.
Turn a new leaf, find my style.
After all, for a long time now I've been walking around like a zombie, wanting to do nothing else than create.
It's been bothering me while awake as well as in my dreams.
I just simply need to pick up that pen and create something.
It's just like when I write in this blog.. I let the words flow freely.
Rather than my passion, maybe it was my motivation that got lost on the way?
Because I wouldn't create worlds, characters and stories in my head if the passion was gone.
I just simply can't put everything down on paper. I need to get rid of that block!!